A letter to my son:
As I lay here and watch you sleep on the night of your first half birthday (call me crazy I love holidays and that includes birthdays, so we need more holidays and yes we will celebrate the “halfs” too!) I can’t even began to explain the amount of joy, love and laughter you have brought into my life. Just 6 short months ago you made your grand appearance into this crazy world. I knew from the moment I first heard you cry that my life had changed forever. I still remember your dad saying to me as I layed on the table in the operating room, “We did it.” Tears flushed my eyes at the sound of your cry and ever since that moment I have been ever so thankful for you. (If you wan to read Grayson’s full birth story, click here.)
I had mentioned today that I remember vividly the day you were born like reading the palm of my hand. I clearly remember every detail and I still think of how special that day was to your dad and I, along with countless others.
People continuously tell me to cherish every moment and enjoy all the little moments with you because time flys. That is not a joke. I can’t even believe it’s been 6 months. Time slips by so fast when you are having fun I guess. Everyday I look at you and I see the smile you have on your face even on the days I am dog tired and would long for a five hour nap. I realize that nap is nowhere near important than being able to hold, cuddle and love on you.
I love the way you love kisses and are learning to give kisses back. I smile from ear to ear everytime I stand up and you raise your arms for me to hold you because you know that I would not walk away from you. I love how you still love to nurse yourself to sleep and we can share that moment together. I love your little laugh when I tickle you under your pits and the smile you make ay me when you wake up in the mornings.
You change so much everyday and I can already tell how smart you will be. I hope you grow up to be as loveable as you are now and keep that loving heart of yours forever.
I pray everyday that I am doing this parenting thing right. I want the best for you and nothing less. There are days I struggle and want to cry, but having you truly does make my life easier. I have less time to worry about myself and more time to enjoy with you.
Know that I will always love you, I will be your friend, but first I will be your mother. I look forward to the next six months, but they can go a little slower!
With all my love,